Miscarriage – A Letter To My Angel Babies I Lost Too Soon

This is a difficult post for me to write as it digs deep into my emotional suffering from my miscarriages. Anyone who has ever suffered a miscarriage understands the heartache, pain and suffering it causes. I lost 5 babies. This was one of the hardest things I have ever encountered and honestly wasn’t sure if I would ever get my strength back. Each one of those babies meant something to me. Yes, they were all 1st trimester losses (between 7.5-10w) and 1 even a chemical, but they were my babies and I loved every second of carrying them. My 1st one was nearly 3 years ago and my most recent one was a couple of months ago (November of 2015). Sure, time does help and I am ok overall (finally), but that doesn’t mean I am over it. Honestly, I will never be over it. It all ended way too early and is so unfair! I miss them and want them in my arms so bad.

In the time that I have had 5 losses, I have seen many friends and family get pregnant and have 1 baby and some even were lucky enough to have 2 babies. Going through a miscarriage is one of the most challenging things I have had to endure, but after 5 losses I have learned how to get my strength back. It certainly wasn’t easy! As I always have mentioned in my past posts, writing is my outlet to let go. It is my way to mourn and heal. This is one of the things that helps me tremendously. So recently I have decided to write a letter to my angel babies. It is very raw and emotional, but I promise you it has a bright side. It has hope! I have learned that is one of the things that help me through this journey. HOPE!  Continue reading “Miscarriage – A Letter To My Angel Babies I Lost Too Soon”

How To Make Your Marriage Stronger During Your Infertility Journey

In honor of Valentine’s Day, I wanted to write a post about LOVE and how Infertility has made my marriage stronger. My husband and I walked down the isle 8.5 years ago. When we married each other, I knew that we would have conflicts and hurdles to overcome in our life ahead of us. And we have! But I never imagined that one of those hurdles would be Infertility and Miscarriages. I never thought I would be the 1% of women who have recurrent miscarriages. I never thought we would be 12% who suffer infertility! I never thought that in my 5th year of marriage, my husband and I would have to endure the stress, exhaustion and heartache of timed sex, failed fertility treatments, 5 pregnancy losses, 6 D&C’s and 3 hysteroscopies among many other things that this journey brings. Yes, all these lovely things this infertility journey delivers us can be trying on any relationship, but after three years of walking this bumpy road, I can honestly say I feel we have grown closer and stronger. It certainly hasn’t been easy by any means and I remember many days that felt like we were reacting a scene from the movie “The Break-up.” Luckily for us, love concours all! Sure, we haven’t beat this journey yet, but we are doing it together and that is something that I am so thankful for. Here are some of the things that have helped us stay on track while driving down the bumpy dirt road of Infertility. Continue reading “How To Make Your Marriage Stronger During Your Infertility Journey”

Fertility Boost Acai Bowl

I’ve always loved Acai Bowls and recently started making them at home. This dark purple berry has two times the antioxidants as a blueberry! These little berries are known as the “Beauty Berry” and truly does the body good from the inside out. Acai berries offer health benefits such as boosting your immune system, improving metobolic function and is amazing for your skin and hair! Many consider Acai berries to be a Superfood because of its many health benefits including weight loss and anti-aging properties, but there has been a recent study that shows they also aid fertility. So they help me look younger and help aid in my fertility? Sign me up!!! Continue reading “Fertility Boost Acai Bowl”

Maca Love Bomb – Fertility Smoothie

So I recently discovered Maca Powder. I’ve been hearing a lot about it’s claims to help aid fertility so of course, I wanted in.

Maca is a rooted vegetable that grows in the highest altitudes of the Andes Mountains in Peru. This superfood works with your endocrine system to help regulate and balance your hormones, increase energy and is an overall health booster! This radish like root is considered an endocrine adaptogen which is a natural substance like herbs and plants that help our bodies adapt to natural stressors like a demanding job, illness or a busy schedule. Maca is one of the most efficient ways to naturally balance your hormones and has been used for thousands of years to enhance fertility and boost energy. Additionally, some studies suggest the Maca improves sperm count, menopausal symptoms and libido among other ailments.

Although Maca is a natural plant, it is still very important to talk to your Doctor/RE/OBGYN before use. Continue reading “Maca Love Bomb – Fertility Smoothie”

Infertility Brain – This Is Your Brain On Infertility!

I think there is something wrong with me. This Infertility crap is completely all consuming. So the other day I was scrolling through FaceBook and I saw a Care.com Ad that says “Looking for a child?” Ummm, Actually…….. YES I am!!! LMAO! I did a double take of the ad and realized it said, “Looking for child care?” Yep, there is really something wrong with me that I see that ad and my brain interprets that. No matter where I turn, there’s a baby or a pregnant woman. Or worse, a pregnant woman with a baby! It’s completely unavoidable! This is your brain on Infertility!  I call it Infertility Brain. Pregnant women get Pregnancy Brain and Infertile women get Infertility Brain! LOL! Continue reading “Infertility Brain – This Is Your Brain On Infertility!”